So, a couple of days ago something big impacted my life. I will not go into detail but I will share a little of what had happened. I got in contact with a great friend & I believed this friend made me believe that I was living life for everything but the right reasons. I already know I have my children to live for. They are the greatest & I know for sure I will always have them to love me for me no matter what. I found that I had a lot of insecurities & I needed to step up and change this. I realize that I was trying to make everyone in my life happy & I wasn't succeeding for one reason, I wasn't happy myself. In order for you to make another happy we must keep in mind that "we" ourselves need to be happy first. We need to get in contact with our inner selves & find what can make us happy, who we are & what we love about ourselves. I never thought of this because me, being the person I am, I always put everyone else before myself.
I started making some changes which includes keeping a journal of my everyday journey & adding diet & daily exercise to my busy day. I try so hard to stay focused & remember that I am doing this for myself & no one else. These past few days have been very emotional for me. I have been caught up in a world I thought could be perfect, not realizing that this world is what we make of it. Everything in our lives happens because we allow it to. When we are sad, we wanna be sad. When we are happy, we want to be happy. When we are hurt, we wanna be hurt. But there is always a chance for you to change what you want to. We live our lives each day worrying about everyone else. We need to remember to live it to the fullest...but for ourselves.
I no longer talk to this friend because certain things won't allow for it. But I want to say thank you. You helped me believe in myself in a way I never thought I could. I will always be grateful for the words you said that made a difference in my life. J*S.....
-kishya
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